well this year was ok.. quite normal but had a few fun times and alot of other sad times lol. Change does not happen is a heart beat but it takes a big event and a long time to fester into something new. But yea hope that what i have will stay and what i dont want goes away. I am very lazy to write the whole years events so i am just gonna stop here with a vague idea of this year dats all.

a conversation of a perfect world i had with my friend


i can freak the planet as i wish
can set it as when the sun hits the planet it is peaceful and calm when the moon hits it becomes all freaky and odd
awesome i will like in dat world
so surreal so awesome and unpredictable
if u feel like u wanna chill then u go under the sun
u wanna freak out go to the moon light
awesome
stand in between u get to be freaky funky and chillin coolness at the same time
then when eclipse the moon cover the sun everybody break out into a horny orgy frenzy
then when the sun covers the moon everybody get to have tea in the darkness of the night
the world is not a child protection place
so be it as it is haha the best
the world will be so peaceful nobody will fight nobody will hate everybody will just be relieved of so much suffering it will be so damn fun to live
no need for money
no need for an economy
just a plant ur own stuff and grow ur own stuff haha share if u like kinda thing
the best
and also the world world probably farked each other b4 so they will share like there is not diff haha so everybody wins
best time
no monsters
this age is just love and madness
simple
other than dat is love peace and alot of tea under cheery blossoms
awesome cooked food with awesome movies to watch everyday
the best thing
got so many enviroments
best is when the moon is covered by the sun all flower trees will glow
awesome and bubbles will fill the sies and the bubbles will reflect light from the trees damn awesome
a natural festival on its own
sing dance drink eat play
the best combo
all the peoples faces u wont even find  1 frown
imagine a world where even the soil is so pure anything can grow anywhere
because the soil and everything is pure poo and waste is consodered a good thing
when u breath u release co2 but the co2 is used by all the plants haha no polution
no terror no stress no hate no murder
only love and peace
awesome
the sky is so blue the clouds are all fluffy with a feeling of cotton
when it rains u can smell the rivers of sweet water flowing down ur faces
nobody is sick haha nobody is in pain
if wan perfection means must be perfectly balanced
it balance in freaky and fun with normal and calm
the planet will be placed in a solar system with no other life form near even in a gazillion billion i infinity lightyears away
no hyperdrive path way haha no black hole
only beautiful moons  layed with grass as green as a field of moss
got diffrent colors of grass
the moons shine down dat time got diffrent color and mood
so even when u freak out u can freak out with natural funkiness
the fruits there are so tasty the moment u smell it ur mind will be at ease
so clean so free
everybody only eats fruits haha unique fruits haha no killing
everything cooked by 100% natural ingredients
no chemistry no biology no physics
just pure let it be awesomeness
the planet will never be harmed by anything haha and people will live there for all eternity as a peaceful race
music everywhere haha when the trees whistle from the cool and fresh breeze of clean grass
imagine when u look at everybodies eyes u only see the pure heartedness
only see the clearness of a child
pure untouched haha just full of happiness
to support the world haha imagine the sun will always give birth to new moons haha so people can live there
everything is conected haha the flares of the sun will become the orange threads that holda everything together
no culture
no religion
no race
people are just people
i wuld figure there are no animals there
just plants with a will
everything is given not taken
see how balanced is that world
it is perfect
no twists and turns

haha well assignments done holidays come day end and rize again , such a boring cycle so quiet so calm so plain.. end lol

day by day passes by, the coming of a year passes by , absolutely nothing done worth living for , keeping my mind intact for a much more bloomed life. I will wait and make a life which suits me and entertains my short attention span or change me , either way i hope something changes.

Hoping for the best to my friends to surpass the walls in their . Making way for changes which are to come later in life. I myself hope i can change for the better and not feel down by such petty thinking about this world . I am definitely living a lie based on my comprehension of life, writing down my mind is actually helpful because i am at least able to confirm and keep a record of my thoughts. My new journey lies in this one question i have always kept in mind "What do i fear?"

As peaceful as it is there is no difference that i am hating life in a city, such a superficial life where everything seems fake , predictable and very synchronized. Life with no cause has no meaning to it , finding a target to live by is rather hard as there are so many people in this world where i start to wonder if there is actually anyone who is unique , if everybody has the same goal then there is no meaning in having one , it will be a crowded road to live by. A far to boring city, so empty. haiz

Its been like forever since i posted a new entry well loneliness has kicked in, i always wish for a thicker and more unbreakable shell in my mind so i wont feel so soft and open. I'd rather be a stone than a living being anyway , oh well life is not  as giving as it is so what the heck i have to live till i die anyway. although living is not exactly a purpose to anything but then again dying is a pain haha i am so AUNTY haha. Till next millennium when i feel all crappy again i will post in this quiet lonely page bye for now.